Then it's D not calling me back, which is also understandable for not doing that, but as a friend, I would have texted about the fact of not going or going. Then it's C's phone call about where I'm at. Clearly I wasn't ready to meet him or see him tonight, so I simply dismissed it. Though the tone of his voice left a really bad taste in my mouth, then came the ongoing drivel between W and E that went on for at least a good hour or so.
At the end, I had to lend W money and went home with a stupid, or seemingly stupid taxi driver who did not know where I meant to pull over when I meant to pull the goddamn over. Then came home, and found out that the maid seemed to have cleaned everywhere but my floor, which is basically all I ask for whenever she's over. Then again, after a brief observation, it seems like the house was clean, but merely just because the trash was taken out. But for sure it will definitely make me angry if I find out in the morning that she has indeed came and that she indeed did not clean my room for some peculiar reason.
This is a good example of a great start of the night and unfortunately ended with a silent rage, which is the worst that can ever possibly happen to a person who is trying or aiming to enjoy her Saturday night.
As a conclusion, from now on, I will not let anyone ruin my night anymore. So what if they don't call back or accept my invitation? It's probably for the better because they might not be that much fun anyway. So what if someone is pissed off, if he really is, then there's more the reason why I shouldn't keep hanging out with him anyway if he gives me grief like that and can't be independent and enjoy himself.
So what if some people who are boring with their conversation, I was always free to go or do other things, I just had to do it. So I will make sure when that first sign of boredom appears, I'm out of there. Last, the taxi driver can be excused, because why would you be a taxi driver in the first place, even though it is to do what the customer asks, let's face it, some are just not that good.
After this vent, I'm a lot better and I hope it won't be a repressed aggressional way. What I really want to do is to be bitter and take it out on someone who has wronged or not wronged me but just at the wrong place at the wrong time, could be anyone really. And the result is that either he/she will be fucked up or I myself would be. Though as a whole, that would just be silly and unnecessary, and maybe I'm just having one of my hormonal episodes that what I should really do is to read a book and be cool and go to bed.
Working out too much tends to give you too much testosterone and that can be destructive either to self or others, also gives you much strain on the neck. Hopefully, I won't be ending up with a wider, blood-veiny neck like those body builders due to my stressing out.
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